language of letting go…

i have a sweet friend who sent me a day from a devotional that she reads. it is from melody beattie’s book called, “the language of letting go.”  i want to share it with y’all because i think it goes pretty perfectly with the posts about how i have been stepping out.  i hope that i am encouraging y’all to do the same.  here is the excerpt…
March 30: Experiment
Experiment. Try something new. Try stepping out.
We have been held back too long. We have held ourselves back too long.
As children, many of us were deprived of the right to experiment. Many of us are depriving ourselves of the right to experiment and learn as adults.
Now is the time to experiment. It is an important part of recovery. Let yourself try things. Let yourself try something new. Yes, you will make mistakes. But from those mistakes, you can learn what your values are.
Some things we just won’t like. That’s good. Then we’ll know a little more about who we are and what we don’t like.
Some things we will like. They will work with our values. They will work with who we are, and we will discover something important and life-enriching.
There is a quiet time in recovery, a time to stand still and heal, a time to give ourselves a cooling-off time. This is a time of introspection and healing. It is an important time. We deal with our issues.
There also comes a time when it is equally important to experiment, to begin to “test the water.”
Recovery does not equal abstention from life. Recovery means learning to live and learning to live fully. Recovery means exploration, investigation, experimentation.
Recovery means being done with the rigid, shame-based rules from the past, and formulating healthy values based on self-love, love for others, and living in harmony with this world.
Experiment. Try something new. Maybe you won’t like it. Maybe you’ll make a mistake. Maybe you will like it, and maybe you’ll discover something you love.
within that is something i am not comfortable with….making mistakes.  what if i’m wrong?  what if i do something wrong?  what if i try something and realize it doesn’t line up with my values?  oh good lord.  all the questions and thoughts that hit me when i step out of my comfort zone.  they could be endless.  until i remember this….
breathe…just breathe….
i just keep coming back to the place where i remember that i am allowed to screw up.  i don’t want to hurt anybody.  if i do, i will apologize.  but, i do want to live life in a bubble of fake security that keeps me away from living in the moment.  that is what i want to do….
i want to live FULLY in the moments of my life…i don’t want to miss out because i am stuck in my fearful thoughts.
so, i am going to explore…investigate….experiment.  and i am going to let go of shame.  i am going to screw up.  and, that’s ok.  i hope to learn to give myself the grace that i truly believe in.  i won’t let go of my values.  i won’t become a different person.  i just will continue to breathe…smile…and be me.  and, learn more and more who ME is….i hope y’all are along for the ride.  i would love to hear your stories too.
share some with me….
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